May 29, 2009

I am bored, bored, bored. Typing to keep myself busy.

A list of all the books I have read so far this year:

Surprised by Hope by N.T. Wright: Best book of the year. I can say, with all honesty, it changed and is changing, my life. I probably think about this book every day. 

Daily Life in Ancient Rome by Florence Dupont: Fascinating

Some book on Jewish Religious culture....sucked

The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoyevsky: Good but long and arduous read. Fyodor is a a great writer but what was his purpose in writing this novel....?

Advanced Backpacking by Karen Berger: Lots of helpful hints

Philosophy: The Classics by Nigel Warburton: I "read" this book through podcasts of each chapter. Its on iTunes if your interested.

How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie: An educational/self-help sort of read. Not meant to be enjoyable.

GloboChrist: The Great Commission Takes a Postmodern Turn by Carl Raschke: Loved parts of it, mostly the first half. Disagreed with almost all of the second half. Became frustrated with it.

Through Painted Deserts by Donald Miller: Anything Donald Miller is great and this book was a bit more contemplative then some of his others. It meanders and I liked that.

Resident Aliens by Stanley Hauerwas: Really good insight. On par with An Unstoppable Force and The Gospel According to Starbucks. Ate it up. 

Books 1 through 7 in The Wheel of Time series: I am irrevocably addicted to this series. I am trying my hardest to take a break and not buy the 8th book

I have had a whole lot of nothing to do this week so two of those books were finished in the last four days. I am now on my 3rd book this week! 

Currently, I am reading or will be reading:

Augustus: The Life of Rome's First Emperor by Anthony Everitt: About half way through. Reads like an adventure novel. 

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

A Walk Across America by Peter Jenkins

The Portable Thoreau 

Les Miserables by Victor Hugo. Dan can't stop talking about how good this is so at some point I am going to have to read it. 

And, finally a link to a great blog post from a Mars Hill student




May 26, 2009

I saw this quote on the blog of a pastor friend of mine:

"Abortion is the white supremacist's best friend."
- Aveda King, niece of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

Amen to that. 

May 23, 2009

I'm on my third straight week of beard growth. My mustache feels like stringy fur and the sideburns are kind of thin but I plan to grow it out for another week or two before I do any trimming. The photo to your left is mostly for entertainment but if you have a suggestion for which beard I should choose, feel free to let me know. I'm leaning towards the full beard.

I'm at camp and have terribly limited internet access. I might not do a lot of posting over the summer. Maybe not much at all until I get to Seattle. We shall see.

Since camp hasn't started, my days are full of reading. That is pretty much it unless you count walking to the kitchen to eat. Thursday and Friday I picked up some work weed eating around camp. I also tried to help build a boardwalk to the archery course. It didn't go well and I ended up having to tear my work down with a crowbar. Someone more experienced in building things can take over.

Since it is Saturday the camp is basically deserted. Dan, the only person I know in the whole state of Ohio, is at a wedding and wont be back until tomorrow and I am in the kitchen with a "loaner" laptop. All I have planned for the rest of the day is exercise and reading.

A cool design website to check out from a Christian, Chuck Anderson.

A shove in the right direction.

Terminator: Salvation is in theaters and I am drooling.

Since I have nothing to do but read, I am on book 7 of the Wheel of Time series. 15th or 16th book so far this year.

For all questions related to beards

I don't even know what to say about this so I'll post the link and let you see for yourself.

Jesse Ventura vs. Dick Cheney

Later ya'll.

May 11, 2009

My trip didn't last very long. I messed up me knee somehow. I was about four miles in when I knew I was in trouble. I turned around to head back. It took hours and I almost had to drag my leg to get there. 

Needless to say, I'm a little down. I think I am going to take some time to figure things out in seclusion with God. I might go to camp early and get a cabin. 


May 9, 2009

Excerpts from Song of the Open Road

AFOOT and light-hearted I take to the open road, 
Healthy, free, the world before me, 
The long brown path before me leading wherever I choose.

Henceforth I ask not good-fortune, I myself am good-fortune, 
Henceforth I whimper no more, postpone no more, need nothing, 
Done with indoor complaints, libraries, querulous criticisms, 
Strong and content I travel the open road.

The earth, that is sufficient, 
I do not want the constellations any nearer, 
I know they are very well where they are, 
I know they suffice for those who belong to them.

(Still here I carry my old delicious burdens, 
I carry them, men and women, I carry them with me wherever 
I go, 
I swear it is impossible for me to get rid of them, 
I am fill'd with them, and I will fill them in return.)

......

You air that serves me with breath to speak! 
You objects that call from diffusion my meanings and give them 
shape! 
You light that wraps me and all things in delicate equable showers! 
You paths worn in the irregular hollows by the roadsides! 
I believe you are latent with unseen existences, you are so dear to 
me.

.......

The earth expanding right hand and left hand, 
The picture alive, every part in its best light, 
The music falling in where it is wanted, and stopping where it is 
not wanted, 
The cheerful voice of the public road, the gay fresh sentiment of 
the road.

O highway I travel, do you say to me Do not leave me? 
Do you say Venture not-if you leave me you are lost? 
Do you say I am already prepared, I am well-beaten and undenied, 
adhere to me?

O public road, I say back I am not afraid to leave you, yet I love 
you, 
You express me better than I can express myself, 
You shall be more to me than my poem.

I think heroic deeds were all conceiv'd in the open air, and all 
free poems also, 
I think I could stop here myself and do miracles, 
I think whatever I shall meet on the road I shall like, and whoever 
beholds me shall like me, 
I think whoever I see must be happy.

From this hour I ordain myself loos'd of limits and imaginary lines, 
Going where I list, my own master total and absolute, 
Listening to others, considering well what they say, 
Pausing, searching, receiving, contemplating, 
Gently, but with undeniable will, divesting myself of the holds that 
would hold me.

I inhale great draughts of space, 
The east and the west are mine, and the north and the south are 
mine.

I am larger, better than I thought, 
I did not know I held so much goodness.

All seems beautiful to me, 
can repeat over to men and women You have done such good to me 
I would do the same to you, 
I will recruit for myself and you as I go, 
I will scatter myself among men and women as I go, 
I will toss a new gladness and roughness among them, 
Whoever denies me it shall not trouble me, 
Whoever accepts me he or she shall be blessed and shall bless me.

.......

Now I see the secret of the making of the best persons, 
It is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth.

.......

Now I re-examine philosophies and religions, 
They may prove well in lecture-rooms, yet not prove at all under the 
spacious clouds and along the landscape and flowing currents.

Here is realization, 
Here is a man tallied-he realizes here what he has in him, 
The past, the future, majesty, love-if they are vacant of you, you 
are vacant of them.

Only the kernel of every object nourishes; 
Where is he who tears off the husks for you and me? 
Where is he that undoes stratagems and envelopes for you and me?

.......

Allons! whoever you are come travel with me! 
Traveling with me you find what never tires.

The earth never tires, 
The earth is rude, silent, incomprehensible at first, Nature is rude 
and incomprehensible at first, 
Be not discouraged, keep on, there are divine things well envelop'd, 
I swear to you there are divine things more beautiful than words can 
tell.

.......

To know the universe itself as a road, as many roads, as roads for 
traveling souls.

All parts away for the progress of souls, 
All religion, all solid things, arts, governments-all that was or is 
apparent upon this globe or any globe, falls into niches and 
corners before the procession of souls along the grand roads 
of the universe.

Of the progress of the souls of men and women along the grand roads 
of the universe, all other progress is the needed emblem and 
sustenance.

Forever alive, forever forward, 
Stately, solemn, sad, withdrawn, baffled, mad, turbulent, feeble, 
dissatisfied, 
Desperate, proud, fond, sick, accepted by men, rejected by men, 
They go! they go! I know that they go, but I know not where they go, 
But I know that they go toward the best - toward something great.

Whoever you are, come forth! or man or woman come forth! 
You must not stay sleeping and dallying there in the house, though 
you built it, or though it has been built for you.

Out of the dark confinement! out from behind the screen! 
It is useless to protest, I know all and expose it

.......

Allons! through struggles and wars! 
The goal that was named cannot be countermanded.

Have the past struggles succeeded? 
What has succeeded? yourself? your nation? Nature? 
Now understand me well - it is provided in the essence of things that 
from any fruition of success, no matter what, shall come forth 
something to make a greater struggle necessary.

My call is the call of battle, I nourish active rebellion, 
He going with me must go well arm'd, 
He going with me goes often with spare diet, poverty, angry enemies, 
desertions.

15 
Allons! the road is before us! 
It is safe - I have tried it - my own feet have tried it well - be not 
detain'd! 
Let the paper remain on the desk unwritten, and the book on the 
shelf unopen'd! 
Let the tools remain in the workshop! let the money remain unearn'd! 
Let the school stand! mind not the cry of the teacher! 
Let the preacher preach in his pulpit! let the lawyer plead in the 
court, and the judge expound the law.

Comrade, I give you my hand! 
I give you my love more precious than money, 
I give you myself before preaching or law; 
Will you give me yourself. will you come travel with me? 
Shall we stick by each other as long as we live?

Walt Whitman

May 8, 2009

Second major snag: my pack weight is actually 48 pounds. I don't know how I miscalculated but this is enough to kill the entire trip....soooo we will see how it goes. I'm a little depressed about this.

May 8, 2009

By this time tomorrow I will be at my first night's camp. I graduate in the afternoon and then I am officially free. I have butterflies in my stomach. Not the love butterflies. The excitement butterflies. I hate love butterflies. 

I've already hit a few snags for the trip. The main one is I don't know where I will be sleeping the last four days of my hike in the Smokies. Thats cool, though. God will work it all out. 

Here is the itinerary for the trip:

Day 1: May 10th: Amicalola Falls to Hawk Mountain Shelter: 16.6 miles
Day 2: May 11th: Blood Mountain Shelter: 20.5 miles
Day 3: May 12th: Blue Mountain Shelter: 20.4 miles
          - Pass through Neels Gap (civilization)
Day 4: May 13th: Plumorchard Shelter: 23.3 miles
Day 5: May 14th: Carter Shelter: 19.7 miles
Day 6: May 15th: Siler Bald Shelter: 19.6 miles
Day 7: May 16th: Wesser Bald Shelter: 17.9
Day 8: May 17th: Sassafras Gap Shelter: 13.4 miles
          - Resupply and relax at Nantahala Outdoor Center.
Day 9: May 18th: Fontana Dam Shelter: 21.8 miles
Day 10: May 19th: Russell Field Shelter: 13.7 miles
Day 11: May 20th: Double Spring Shelter: 15 miles
Day 12: May 21st: Pecks Corner Shelter: 20.9 miles
          - Pass through Clingman's Dome
Day 13: May 22nd: Davenport Gap Shelter: 19.1 miles
Day 14: May 23rd: Meet Sara for ride home: 2 miles

Total of 244 miles. 

I'll have my final pack weight tomorrow morning. Earlier this week it weighed 27 pounds for 1 week of food and supplies. Later tonight, I'll take a pre-trip picture and record my weight. I've got guys telling me I'll lose anywhere from 10 to 20 pounds of weight. I'm betting on 10 to 12. I'll buy a cup of coffee for whoever can guess my final weight. 

Well goodnight! Wish me luck! And remember to pray for me! 

May 6, 2009

I promise I will post about gay marriage soon but at the moment all my emotions and thoughts are with this trip. Saturday is the day.

My emotions are up and down all day. One moment I feel confident, the next I think of the distance and wonder what it would feel like to come home under the shadow of defeat. Last night I lay in bed hoping I wouldn't be lonely on the trail by myself. I even had a dream where I injured my left knee and kept pushing on anyway.

A couple days ago I sat down in Starbucks and made a list of my goals for this trip:

To be tougher - mentally, physically and spiritually. A lot of college students I know are lazy and apathetic. My generation has been babied with a sense of entitlement. Somehow it has creeped into our minds that we have earned what we have without lifting a finger to work for it. I fear I have this sense of entitlement in me and I want to get rid of it. I want to earn something I've poured my energy and heart into.

Peace. For God to bring rest to my soul.

Hope instead of anger. I've learned that an outlet for my passion doesn't have to be anger. I can learn to hope instead of despair.

To confront loneliness and fear. I have had nights where loneliness was so severe I felt claustrophobic and terrified of dying. I haven't dealt with this in about 9 months but its been a reoccurring problem since I was a kid.

To see life as poetry. Good poetry are works of art, words crafting beauty in the mind. Imagine if I saw life as beautiful and exciting as I see poetry.

May 5, 2009

I found this on my cup of curly fries from Arby's:

"Beef and cheddar - the two greatest words on the planet."

Uh, that would be three words guys. Knowledge is power.

May 5, 2009

Tomorrow is my last exam: the final obstacle to my graduation goal.

Saturday, right after I graduate I head to Amicolala Falls State Park. Sunday morning I begin my hike. I float between excitement and anticipation and fear and worry. What if I get on that trail and can't do it? What if I can't do twenty-mile days?

I would probably cry.

But I think I will do well. These fears are like any other before a big event. It's completely normal to worry about things going wrong with something you've poured your heart into.

I think I'll do well and have a great time. There will be challenges: physical exertion, ankles, loneliness, weather, animals, blisters, and a dozen other unforeseen snags. But that is part of the adventure. Not knowing is part of it. Anything else is called a vacation and those are usually at the beach.

I HATE the beach.

By the end of this trip, I will know myself in ways college can't accomplish. There is no classroom for this. A short quote from Whitman's Song of the Open Road says it best:

"Now I see the secret of the making of the best persons, It is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth."

Whatever happens on this trip, God is with me and so are the prayers of people who remember me. Walt Whitman, in I Sing the Body Electric says that man "brings every thing to the test of himself...he strikes soundings at last only here." I will strike my soul against God's earth and hear what echoes back. What good, what false. What true, what flawed. What beautiful, what weak. And God will strike the soundings of his soul into my flesh. His echoes will ring in my body and I will hear the call to the character of Christ.

May 3, 2009

The Sweltering

I'm exhausted from questions
I'm tired of talk

I miss how I felt when I was a kid
The world, and myself, were accepted
and watched through simple eyes
I wasn't afraid of people
or the future
I wasn't ashamed

I miss innocence and simple thoughts
I didn't wonder about money
or health
or love
or hope
I lived

I wonder, always wondering
Always questioning
will there be war?
will the economy recover?
what will happen to the environment?

will I have a wife and family?
am I a good man?
will I make a difference?

I miss when I didn't have so many questions
Too many, with too few answers,
and hope will falter
left with only anger
like pounding against concrete walls


My amateur attempt at poetry.

Note: I'm not being emo. I hate emo kids. I just think questions can carry a heavy weight at times.


May 1, 2009



I've bought all the food for my trip (it cost a lot) and placed it all into two, one-week piles. I've decided to carry a weeks worth of food in my pack and resupply only once, instead of two or three times to save weight. For that, I am borrowing a bigger backpack from a friend. It's a 4800 cu. in. North Face to replace my 2400 cu. in. Marmot. There was no way all that food was going to fit in my Marmot.

I tested the pack out with all the supplies in there and it's only 27 pounds. Not bad. It felt ridiculously light compared to the 45 pounds I was running up and down stairs with. When I pulled it onto my shoulders I felt a surge of confidence. I'm gonna rock this trail.

I've also finalized my itinerary. I'll arrive at my last shelter, Davenport Gap, on the 22nd. From there it is a 4 mile hike to Waterville, North Carolina where my dad will meet me that Saturday morning. There are a few waterfalls down a side trail I might go see while I'm waiting for him. It's a 4 and a half hour trip so I should be back home late afternoon the 23rd of May, earlier than I expected.

I'll post my itinerary so you can see the daily distance I'll hike and also so if anything happens my parents can check my blog to see where I am at.

Pretty excited...